page 11: i will meet you in the next life, when we are both cats.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
mused @ 11:49 AM
reached home at 4. slept to 730. ate dinner till 9. studied to 3.
tried to keep awake with milk, soup, cereal and chocolate. (bloated)
rereading dracula is not easy. the pressure that comes as the term paper comes is strangely good for doing work.
in 4 more weeks, the exams will be here (gasp). i should be panicking really, but if i revise every day from now till that date, i should be safe (yeah right)
the truth is i am afraid. like the debacle of 03/04 threatens to come back and repeat itself again. a quick recap, those were the 'golden' years, where i failed practically every exam known to man. its amazing how i got to ntu really.
but fear manifests itself in more ways then one. there is the fear of the known. and also the fear of the unknown.
the fear of the known is you assuming the same outcome will happen when you do the same thing. it is but an prediction how something will turn out. but is it true everytime?
like how dracula is a fear of the unknown, i feel myself facing something i cannot comprehend because i have either rejected or avoided the unknown all together.
and now we resume normal programming that is study.
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"that is good logic, so far as it goes. but how do you - how can you account for it not being there?" - van Helsing.Labels: school life
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