page 16: decieve - shadow clown.
Monday, October 29, 2007
mused @ 11:09 PM
i believe in fate, not destiny.
the dictionary defines fate as the development of events beyond ones control. i beg to defer. i regard it as the things that are meant to happen, ie, the people you will meet, the events that occur. i believe that it is God's plan who you meet, what happens, even though i have wandered off a bit.
i agree with the dictionary's definition of destiny, that is the things that will necessarily happen to a person in the future. but i don't believe in destiny.
how you react to the things will determine what happens in the future. it is like there are many parallel universes laid out for us at a moment we have to make a decision. if only you can look into those universes and explore what would happen in them. its like a million parallel universes are created everytime you make a decision.
but once you made a decision, there is no turning back, there is no chronosphere, no alternate universe travel machine that will allow you to explore the other 'could have beens'. so i must once again learn to look forward.
i will elaborate more on this topic and the 3 types of time travel possibilities there are in the future.
i think i discovered i find creative energy in pain. the more tortured i feel, afterwards, i feel a strange burst of creative energy. its like i have a weapon that converts my pain into power, but to use the power i have to feel pain. i wouldn't want to guess too much, but i read before that most comics are complex people in real life. maybe i am one of those tortured comics. but that will be elevating myself to a position which i don't deserve.
yet. bwahaha.
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shinkai's been unleashed.
2 weeks!
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page 8 - footnotes: addendum.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
mused @ 1:23 AM
follow the blue brick road and you will complete the stories that intertwine.
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page 8: same time, different story, identical destination.
Monday, September 24, 2007
mused @ 10:50 PM
one year ago//
as the clock ticks by in yew tee, he hopes the phone will not ring. its a monday duty and one of his last before he ords. getting out of national service... and finally university. he is wondering who he will meet then. no more drills, no more duties. new people whom he would meet. would they be friendly? would they be nice? would university be all it was hyped up to be?
he looks at the clock. it ticks by slowly...
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somewhere in tampines:
averting her gaze from the clock, a girl is burning the midnight oil. the a levels loom large. the prelims have just ended. the battle was over, but the war has only just begun. this path was pre decided the moment she set foot in jc. she knows what she wants...
a voice breaks the silence, the television buzzes with noise...
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somewhere else in hougang:
the television show entertains one who has just finished her prelims. some time to take a break before the big one. the actor on the screen cracks a joke and she laughs at the antics. not much thought about the future, just relax for now... and everything will fall in place.
she is feeling peckish, she heads to the refrigerator.
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somewhere in sembawang:
the cold air floods his feet. finally being able to clear his leave, he is at home resting. a bit more, a bit more, and it will end. it was never easy, 2 years to the nation. grabbing a quick drink, he heads back to bed. he lies on it, but is unable to sleep. find a job after ns, get better pay. maybe some experience. maybe he will do a bit more for his portfolio...
he stares at the ceiling blankly..
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somewhere in serangoon:
and the ceiling stares back. she is tired from the effort she has put in for work for her studies. but she knows it will put her in good stead for the a levels. but where does she want to go? she can't decide. america, australia are all a-knocking. what course to take, what to do, what will be? all this time for this moment... but the decision is still uncertain.. how many years has she studied for this moment? she does a quick mental calculation.
6 + 4 + 2...
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somewhere in hall 12, ntu:
+ 1. that was 13 years. not forgetting the 2 years he had served in the army. now in university, year one, a freshman. but already the wheels have begun to turn. it was time to prepare for next years freshman camp. he is considering helping out in it. wasn't it about this time, one year ago, he was in an army camp, thinking about his future...
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one day, not too long ago, it was said that we would meet. and here we are.
and how many more people yet?
where were you?
yesterday.now.forever.Labels: hypothetical thoughts, random ramblings, school life
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